Someone I love very much wrote these poems after my brother died. They're absolutely beautiful so I had to share.
1
I sit by the window, rain running down the panes, splashing into puddles
Birds wash and preen, play in the rain.
Children romping, stomping in puddles, dancing and playing in the rain.
All I have left are my memories and tears,
I know the platitudes, move on, stop crying, he wouldn’t want you to be so sad.
I’m stuck in this valley of shadows, and death and mourning.
The world continues and I’m stuck in one day.
I have no memory past that day,
Six months later I awake in such pain
How do I live with out you?
There is no praise for God, just questions and anger and fear.
Why must you die, my life is such a lie.
I miss your smile, your voice, your laugh, your hugs, your beautiful brown eyes.
You died!
And I’m left in the saddest place I’ve ever been.
2
Drowning in the water,
Cold and dark,
I feel pain, and grief, and fear all around me.
Light, warmth and hope,
way above me.
Lying, I say, “I’m good”, I’m fine” and
“I’ll be okay.”
I’m left here,
Deep in the sea
Alone!
Later
Much later,
I feel Warmth! And Light! And Hope!
I see colors, blue skies, golden suns, green growing grass,
and hear, the birds, the wind, children laughing all around me.
Things I’ve been missing for over a year.
Happy, contented,
No longer drowning, but floating on air!